GOODBYE, MY ENGINEER
GOODBYE, MY ENGINEER This is a long story, take time to read this.
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Paalam, aking engineer
This is a long story, take time to read this.
Kahapon pinuntahan kita, I smiled as I saw you calm and being called as “ mastermind. ” It’s been two times since I ’ve got my own TOTGA, and for that once times, I eventually moved on and my heart has healed since you left me.
I was in alternate time in highschool when I first met you, in a veritably unanticipated place and time. Galing ako no’n sa library at madilim na rin sa labas at malakas noise ang ulan dahil my professor asked me to probe about our coming assignment. Hindi ko inakalang aabutin pala ako ng ala- syete ng gabi sa lot, ako dad nga ang naglock ng library door since umalis na ang librarian. Pagkabigay ko sa guard ng susi ng library, ay tinakbo ko ang palabas sa gate at sumilong kahit na alam kong mababasa dad rin ako, dahil I did n’t bring my marquee, sana pala nakinig ako kay ma pero kung dinala ko ‘ yung payong, baka hindi kita nakilala. I saw you outside sitting on a bench, nakatingala ka at nakapikit, not indeed minding the drops that were falling to you that time. You looked veritably miserable, and lost at the same time. Wala nang masyadong dumadaan na jeep or kahit anong mga sasakyan dahil siguro malakas ang ulan at mukhang may paparating stitch bagyo.
What I felt that time was sympathy, because you ’re really sad that time. ginger kitang lapitan because I've that soft side for sad persons but I chose not to. Sinundo ako ni ma at pinagsabihan na kung dinala ko lang sana ang payong, edi hindi sana ako nabasa. I ca n’t stop allowing about you that time. Malinaw sa mga mata ko ang itsura mo, you really look handsome, Kenneth, you still are until now. I ’ve heard a lot about you after that night, iniwanan ka pala ng mundo mo. That time, I allowed you ’re exaggerating your passions because I ’ve noway endured being left alone, I'm so full of love and if I could give it to you, I will. I can see the sadness and emptiness in your eyes everytime na magkakasalubong tayo sa hallway.
One time, I saw you in the hallway of our lot cafeteria, you were there na parang may hinihinay, nakatitig lang ako sa’yo ng mga oras na ‘ yon, hanggang sa dumaan siya, ‘ yung ex mo, you were soliciting her to come back but she refused, saying that she does n’t want you presently and it really breaks my heart seeing you, Kenneth, crying so bad kahit madaming nakatingin sa’yo. I must admit na bystander lang ako sa academy naten, since I studied in our academy, I noway got the chance to be musketeers with someone, kasi puro pag aaral lang ang inaatupag ko, ngayon lang ako nagkaroon ng pakialam sa mga nangyayari sa schoolmate ko, at sa’yo dad.
Months have passed, I stopped allowing about you and minding so much on you ‘ beget I ’ve realized na kailangan kong protektahan ang puso ko. I do n’t want to fall inlove with no assurance. But also, an incident happed, that was 2009, November, when someone tried to force me, I allowed it was my end, ginabi nanaman kasi ako sa academy also a joe seized me inside a dark room, I was crying so bad asking for help also I just stopped there, soliciting and knew formerly that it was my end and also you came, like a knight but not in a shining armor. You fought him and nearly killed him but I stopped you and you heeded. I asked you to keep it a secret, tanda ko dad ang sagot mo sa’kin na lalong nagpabilib sa’kin sa’yo, “ Nahihibang ka na ba?! Babae ka at muntik kang mapagsamantalahan and you want me to keep quiet about it?! Masyado ka namang mabait! Babae ka ‘ no, hindi basta babae lang! ”
I was stupefied and at the same time, amazed. Hinatid mo ko ng gabing ‘ yon at pinaliwanag mo kina ma ang nangyari, my parents and sisters thanked you a lot and indeed asked you for regale the day after that, sabi ko dad no’n, “ Pa, ‘ wag na. He’s busy, ” but you told them, “ Sige po, pupunta po ako. ”
And you smiled that my heart melted. Du’n na nagsimula lahat, we came musketeers kahit minsan napakamoody mo lalo na ‘ pag naaalala mo si Chesca, your partner. But I understand. We came more open to each other especially you, Neth, you always participated every moment about you everyday and so didI. My family allowed you ’re formerly my swain but I said no, because you have n’t moved on yet. Sobrang defensive mo and sweet, you ’ve got sense of humor that made me confuse why Chesca left you ‘ e ang swerte na nga niya to have you but I guess, indeed you ca n’t answer that.
We ’ve reached fourth time high academy together, still musketeers. Bestfriends. Malupit na musketeers tapos stylish dad putek hahahaha. We were okay but will be piecemeal because we ’ll take council in different universities. But you do n’t want to, kahit hindi ko sabihin, alam kong alam mo na ayaw ko ding maghiwalay tayo. You wanted to take engineering at kahit fine trades ang ginger kong kunin, engineering nalang noise kinuha ko para lang magkasama tayo. You indeed bothered na baka ‘ di ko gustuhin ang trabaho na ‘ yun, tatlong araw mo noise akong kinulit but I assured you na I ’ll be fine. Natuwa dad si pop since mastermind siya at si Kuya and of course, you. We took up council in the same university together, I was falling inlove with you not until Chesca appeared again in our story, she wanted you back. You were confused that time and I pushed you to her kahit nasasaktan ako. I indeed told you na, “ Give her a chance. ” and I joked too, “ Baka kalimutan mo ko ha ” but you just pinched my cheeks and told me, “ No way. ” Sabay tayong tumawa no’n.
After months, tests na, we both got busy but we noway lost time for each other. Kung minsan nga ay sabay tayo kung magreview.
In our alternate time of council, I was formerly inlove with you, veritably veritably deep kumbaga sa dagat, lagpas dad pagmamahal ko sa’yo sa sobrang lalim hahahaha, ikaw kasi ei, you always make me feel special and loved.
Lahat ng events, sinecelebrate natin nang sabay. Kung minsan pa nga ay sa’min ka nagpapasko habang ako naman, sa inyo nagnu-new time and guess what? We ’re just bestfriends haha and that fact hurts. In a blink of an eye we ’ve reached our last time in engineering at kahit mahirap, we managed to survive! scale natin no’n nung umamin ako, you were shocked and said, “ I ’m sorry. ”
I was in teary eyes and told you, “ It’s okay, I do n’t anticipate you to love me ba- “ You stopped me by saying the words, “ That’s not what I meant, I ’m sorry because these times, nagtataguan lang pala tayo. I love you too, Sandra. ” I was the happiest girl that time. Imagine, we both reached our dreams together. We both took the board test and both passed it. We ’re both officially mastermind, Kenneth! That was the happiest time. Our families celebrated together and were both happy for us. You indeed told these words infront of our families, “ I ’ll marry this girl two times from now!, ” while hugging me back. I smiled and imagined about our future. Sobrang ganda ng storya natin pero may mga problema noise tayong hinarap.
Bumalik si Chesca, ulit and soliciting you to come back, I was so devastated the moment you talked to her. You did n’t indeed took a regard on me. I was sitting in front of our house that time nang pumunta si Chesca at kinausap ako, eto lang ang tumatak sa isip ko, “ Please let him go, he demanded time for his tone to reach his dreams, may henpeck offer sa kaniya sa Singapore and that’s my father. He wants to snare the occasion but he’s hysterical you ’ll be frenetic. ”
Iyak ako nang iyak habang ikaw tawag nang tawag sa’kin. We broke up week after that, “ Reach your dreams, come back if it’s still me, okay? Iloveyou. ”
That was the last thing I ’ve said na pinagsisihan ko days later. Walang araw na ‘ di ako umiyak kahit gumagawa ng plano sa opisina, my master asked me to take a leave so that I can rest. After two months, I ’ve heard lumipad na ang eroplano niyo patungong Singapore, na lalong sumira sa akin. My family were there for me to console me but that was not enough because I miss you so bad, every second of my life. Two times after that, you came back. Until your mama called me, “ Nakarating na ba si Kenneth dyan? ” I was confused kasi wala naman, “ Wala po tita. Pupunta raw po ba siya? ” I asked and your mama said, “ Oo iha, kanina pa three hours before."
My heart beats briskly as it was used to be. Naaksidente ka, Kenneth. Rinig na rinig ko ang sigawan sa loob ng kwarto mo nang pumasok ako sa sanitarium, I was allowing positive but I ca n’t. Napaiyak ako ng todo nang marinig ko ang mahabang linya mula sa machine na nakakabit sa’yo. I was crying so bad that time. ginger kong magwala, iuntog sarili ko sa pader, I ca n’t explain the pain I was feeling that time. You failed, Neth. You failed. Sa burol mo, lahat umiiyak lalo na kami ng ma mo. Halos maiyak na noise si Kuya sa pag iyak ko. Naalala ko sabi ng ma mo, “ Alam mo anak, Sandra. Kaya siya pumunta sa inyo kasi ginger na niya magpropose. Habang nandoon kasi siya sa Singapore e hinahanda na niya lahat, indeed your gown but unluckily, hindi siya umabot sa’yo, I guess this is God’s plan. ”
Sabay kaming humihikbi ni tita at hindi maipaliwanag ang bigat at sakit na nakadagan sa dibdib namin, Kenneth. Bakit? Ang sakit hanggang ngayon. Chesca indeed told me na inaya ka niyang magpakasal but you kept on rejecting her dahil babalikan mo ako at ako ang ginger mong pakasalan.
Sobrang nalugmot noise ako sa sakit ng nararamdaman ko, I indeed tried to commit self-murder but God does n’t want me to die, baka nga ikaw rin nagrequest no’n sa kaniya. I'm okay now, Kenneth. I've a one time old son formerly indeed walang father. It just happed na aksidenteng nabuntis ako ng walang kwentang lalaki and I know you got frenetic to that joe, haha I ’ve heard that joe got into an accident and still admitted in an sanitarium, perhaps that’s his air.
I can do this, Kenneth. Do n’t worry, I'm formerly okay but still hysterical to give my heart again with someone differently but you. I still cry, Kenneth but better than ahead. Iloveyou and I guess you ’re my great great love. I'm 24 now, and still celebrates your birthdays. I indeed introduced you to my son. There’s this joe who’s courting me for 11 months formerly, please give me the will to love again,
Kenneth. I ’ll noway forget you, indeed when decades will pass, I ’ll still have you in my heart.
I used my friend’s ersatz account because I still want sequestration. Thank you for reading.
This is a long story, take time to read this.
Kahapon pinuntahan kita, I smiled as I saw you calm and being called as “ mastermind. ” It’s been two times since I ’ve got my own TOTGA, and for that once times, I eventually moved on and my heart has healed since you left me.
I was in alternate time in highschool when I first met you, in a veritably unanticipated place and time. Galing ako no’n sa library at madilim na rin sa labas at malakas noise ang ulan dahil my professor asked me to probe about our coming assignment. Hindi ko inakalang aabutin pala ako ng ala- syete ng gabi sa lot, ako dad nga ang naglock ng library door since umalis na ang librarian. Pagkabigay ko sa guard ng susi ng library, ay tinakbo ko ang palabas sa gate at sumilong kahit na alam kong mababasa dad rin ako, dahil I did n’t bring my marquee, sana pala nakinig ako kay ma pero kung dinala ko ‘ yung payong, baka hindi kita nakilala. I saw you outside sitting on a bench, nakatingala ka at nakapikit, not indeed minding the drops that were falling to you that time. You looked veritably miserable, and lost at the same time. Wala nang masyadong dumadaan na jeep or kahit anong mga sasakyan dahil siguro malakas ang ulan at mukhang may paparating stitch bagyo.
What I felt that time was sympathy, because you ’re really sad that time. ginger kitang lapitan because I've that soft side for sad persons but I chose not to. Sinundo ako ni ma at pinagsabihan na kung dinala ko lang sana ang payong, edi hindi sana ako nabasa. I ca n’t stop allowing about you that time. Malinaw sa mga mata ko ang itsura mo, you really look handsome, Kenneth, you still are until now. I ’ve heard a lot about you after that night, iniwanan ka pala ng mundo mo. That time, I allowed you ’re exaggerating your passions because I ’ve noway endured being left alone, I'm so full of love and if I could give it to you, I will. I can see the sadness and emptiness in your eyes everytime na magkakasalubong tayo sa hallway.
One time, I saw you in the hallway of our lot cafeteria, you were there na parang may hinihinay, nakatitig lang ako sa’yo ng mga oras na ‘ yon, hanggang sa dumaan siya, ‘ yung ex mo, you were soliciting her to come back but she refused, saying that she does n’t want you presently and it really breaks my heart seeing you, Kenneth, crying so bad kahit madaming nakatingin sa’yo. I must admit na bystander lang ako sa academy naten, since I studied in our academy, I noway got the chance to be musketeers with someone, kasi puro pag aaral lang ang inaatupag ko, ngayon lang ako nagkaroon ng pakialam sa mga nangyayari sa schoolmate ko, at sa’yo dad.
Months have passed, I stopped allowing about you and minding so much on you ‘ beget I ’ve realized na kailangan kong protektahan ang puso ko. I do n’t want to fall inlove with no assurance. But also, an incident happed, that was 2009, November, when someone tried to force me, I allowed it was my end, ginabi nanaman kasi ako sa academy also a joe seized me inside a dark room, I was crying so bad asking for help also I just stopped there, soliciting and knew formerly that it was my end and also you came, like a knight but not in a shining armor. You fought him and nearly killed him but I stopped you and you heeded. I asked you to keep it a secret, tanda ko dad ang sagot mo sa’kin na lalong nagpabilib sa’kin sa’yo, “ Nahihibang ka na ba?! Babae ka at muntik kang mapagsamantalahan and you want me to keep quiet about it?! Masyado ka namang mabait! Babae ka ‘ no, hindi basta babae lang! ”
I was stupefied and at the same time, amazed. Hinatid mo ko ng gabing ‘ yon at pinaliwanag mo kina ma ang nangyari, my parents and sisters thanked you a lot and indeed asked you for regale the day after that, sabi ko dad no’n, “ Pa, ‘ wag na. He’s busy, ” but you told them, “ Sige po, pupunta po ako. ”
And you smiled that my heart melted. Du’n na nagsimula lahat, we came musketeers kahit minsan napakamoody mo lalo na ‘ pag naaalala mo si Chesca, your partner. But I understand. We came more open to each other especially you, Neth, you always participated every moment about you everyday and so didI. My family allowed you ’re formerly my swain but I said no, because you have n’t moved on yet. Sobrang defensive mo and sweet, you ’ve got sense of humor that made me confuse why Chesca left you ‘ e ang swerte na nga niya to have you but I guess, indeed you ca n’t answer that.
We ’ve reached fourth time high academy together, still musketeers. Bestfriends. Malupit na musketeers tapos stylish dad putek hahahaha. We were okay but will be piecemeal because we ’ll take council in different universities. But you do n’t want to, kahit hindi ko sabihin, alam kong alam mo na ayaw ko ding maghiwalay tayo. You wanted to take engineering at kahit fine trades ang ginger kong kunin, engineering nalang noise kinuha ko para lang magkasama tayo. You indeed bothered na baka ‘ di ko gustuhin ang trabaho na ‘ yun, tatlong araw mo noise akong kinulit but I assured you na I ’ll be fine. Natuwa dad si pop since mastermind siya at si Kuya and of course, you. We took up council in the same university together, I was falling inlove with you not until Chesca appeared again in our story, she wanted you back. You were confused that time and I pushed you to her kahit nasasaktan ako. I indeed told you na, “ Give her a chance. ” and I joked too, “ Baka kalimutan mo ko ha ” but you just pinched my cheeks and told me, “ No way. ” Sabay tayong tumawa no’n.
After months, tests na, we both got busy but we noway lost time for each other. Kung minsan nga ay sabay tayo kung magreview.
In our alternate time of council, I was formerly inlove with you, veritably veritably deep kumbaga sa dagat, lagpas dad pagmamahal ko sa’yo sa sobrang lalim hahahaha, ikaw kasi ei, you always make me feel special and loved.
Lahat ng events, sinecelebrate natin nang sabay. Kung minsan pa nga ay sa’min ka nagpapasko habang ako naman, sa inyo nagnu-new time and guess what? We ’re just bestfriends haha and that fact hurts. In a blink of an eye we ’ve reached our last time in engineering at kahit mahirap, we managed to survive! scale natin no’n nung umamin ako, you were shocked and said, “ I ’m sorry. ”
I was in teary eyes and told you, “ It’s okay, I do n’t anticipate you to love me ba- “ You stopped me by saying the words, “ That’s not what I meant, I ’m sorry because these times, nagtataguan lang pala tayo. I love you too, Sandra. ” I was the happiest girl that time. Imagine, we both reached our dreams together. We both took the board test and both passed it. We ’re both officially mastermind, Kenneth! That was the happiest time. Our families celebrated together and were both happy for us. You indeed told these words infront of our families, “ I ’ll marry this girl two times from now!, ” while hugging me back. I smiled and imagined about our future. Sobrang ganda ng storya natin pero may mga problema noise tayong hinarap.
Bumalik si Chesca, ulit and soliciting you to come back, I was so devastated the moment you talked to her. You did n’t indeed took a regard on me. I was sitting in front of our house that time nang pumunta si Chesca at kinausap ako, eto lang ang tumatak sa isip ko, “ Please let him go, he demanded time for his tone to reach his dreams, may henpeck offer sa kaniya sa Singapore and that’s my father. He wants to snare the occasion but he’s hysterical you ’ll be frenetic. ”
Iyak ako nang iyak habang ikaw tawag nang tawag sa’kin. We broke up week after that, “ Reach your dreams, come back if it’s still me, okay? Iloveyou. ”
That was the last thing I ’ve said na pinagsisihan ko days later. Walang araw na ‘ di ako umiyak kahit gumagawa ng plano sa opisina, my master asked me to take a leave so that I can rest. After two months, I ’ve heard lumipad na ang eroplano niyo patungong Singapore, na lalong sumira sa akin. My family were there for me to console me but that was not enough because I miss you so bad, every second of my life. Two times after that, you came back. Until your mama called me, “ Nakarating na ba si Kenneth dyan? ” I was confused kasi wala naman, “ Wala po tita. Pupunta raw po ba siya? ” I asked and your mama said, “ Oo iha, kanina pa three hours before."
My heart beats briskly as it was used to be. Naaksidente ka, Kenneth. Rinig na rinig ko ang sigawan sa loob ng kwarto mo nang pumasok ako sa sanitarium, I was allowing positive but I ca n’t. Napaiyak ako ng todo nang marinig ko ang mahabang linya mula sa machine na nakakabit sa’yo. I was crying so bad that time. ginger kong magwala, iuntog sarili ko sa pader, I ca n’t explain the pain I was feeling that time. You failed, Neth. You failed. Sa burol mo, lahat umiiyak lalo na kami ng ma mo. Halos maiyak na noise si Kuya sa pag iyak ko. Naalala ko sabi ng ma mo, “ Alam mo anak, Sandra. Kaya siya pumunta sa inyo kasi ginger na niya magpropose. Habang nandoon kasi siya sa Singapore e hinahanda na niya lahat, indeed your gown but unluckily, hindi siya umabot sa’yo, I guess this is God’s plan. ”
Sabay kaming humihikbi ni tita at hindi maipaliwanag ang bigat at sakit na nakadagan sa dibdib namin, Kenneth. Bakit? Ang sakit hanggang ngayon. Chesca indeed told me na inaya ka niyang magpakasal but you kept on rejecting her dahil babalikan mo ako at ako ang ginger mong pakasalan.
Sobrang nalugmot noise ako sa sakit ng nararamdaman ko, I indeed tried to commit self-murder but God does n’t want me to die, baka nga ikaw rin nagrequest no’n sa kaniya. I'm okay now, Kenneth. I've a one time old son formerly indeed walang father. It just happed na aksidenteng nabuntis ako ng walang kwentang lalaki and I know you got frenetic to that joe, haha I ’ve heard that joe got into an accident and still admitted in an sanitarium, perhaps that’s his air.
I can do this, Kenneth. Do n’t worry, I'm formerly okay but still hysterical to give my heart again with someone differently but you. I still cry, Kenneth but better than ahead. Iloveyou and I guess you ’re my great great love. I'm 24 now, and still celebrates your birthdays. I indeed introduced you to my son. There’s this joe who’s courting me for 11 months formerly, please give me the will to love again,
Kenneth. I ’ll noway forget you, indeed when decades will pass, I ’ll still have you in my heart.
I used my friend’s ersatz account because I still want sequestration. Thank you for reading.
